Dearest Daddy

Songs to meditate upon as you read this:
All In All- Lifehouse
Don't Want To Go- Avalon

Prayer turned into a poem written by me... (7th April, 2007). I have not chosen a title for it as yet, but if you think of one let me know.

I pray that you enjoy it and that you keep Matthew 11:28 & 29 in your Spirit. Oh and you have my permission to pass it on.

Nattie


Dearest Daddy who is enthroned in Heaven
But lives in my heart,
I humbly bow before You
With my Heart extended to You,
Wanting just to talk and spend some time with You.

Daddy, today I come before you tired,
Tired of so much.
Daddy, I am tired of the comfortable,
Tired of the numbness,
The bland and solitary life
Tired of blending in,
I'm tired dear God of quenching your Spirit
Fearing what may happen.

Lord I just need so much more of you,
I want to try and catch you,
Like a little girl who follows her daddy's footsteps hoping for a chance to touch Him,
I want to be captured by You
Like a lover captures the one He feels is the apple of His eye,
I want to be the one dear Father
The one you choose to dance in your arms.

Lord I want no more of my filthiness
I want only Your Holiness,
Help me to become
The woman you created me to be.
Help me to deal with the hurts, the aches, the loneliness.
Help me to find my joys, my treasures in You.
Help me to begin fully seeking after You
And not just the things of You!
Dear Father I pray that You ruin EVERYTHING!
Everything that is not of You!

I only want You!
You alone can fill my heart thirsts, soul thrists, mind thirsts.
I want to be filled with You!
Teach me how to be Your precious daughter,
Teach me how to dance
I'm tired of reading and watching others do what I long to,
I want to be in your arms
I want to dance!

Talk is cheap Father,
I can talk all day of what dancing with You should be
But I want to live the dance
For I have realized that my life is the dance
Make it perfect.

But Lord this prayer is not only for me
I love my friends,
I want them to know more of You,
No more learning of who You are,
Dear Father it is time that they knew.
We need your presence Father God,
Impact to us all what You want us to know daily,
I love You and I want Your love to be bestowed upon them
Just like how You have bestowed it upon me.

Lord I also bring before You my family,
Take care of them, love them, teach them.
Show them how much You treasure them.
We love You
We need You
We want You
Make me an example to them
And help me to continue to grow with them.

Finally daddy I bring before You my enemies
Help me to love them just as You love me
Help me to not see them as foes
But to see them in a manner that will help me to be their friend
Help me to be Your witness.
Thank you for all that You have done
Thank you for taking away any feelings that do not glorify You,
Thank You dear father for reminding me that sometimes I just have to let go,
And let You have your way.

To You only does my Spirit yield,
To You only am I lead to,
Father capture me in Your arms,
Enfold me in Your life and love,
And take me into the dance.

Loving You in my ALL!
Your Loving daughter
Natasha

In the stormy rain...

In The Stormy Rain
By: Natasha D. Rufin

Cold
Wet
Hungry
As I stand here
In the stormy rain
Watching you move on
Hating that it was because of my fear
That I missed out on you
On the shelter that your love would have provided
On the beauty and truth of your kiss
Never thought I would end up like this...

I miss you
I want you back
But I have come to realize that
Maybe just maybe
My heart was meant to be like this
Left without protection and sustenance
In the stormy rain...

untouched and whole

Untouched And Whole
By: Natasha D. Rufin

You must not be serious
You think you could say what you did
And I be the same way with you?
You showed me what you really wanted
A quick liason that would have cost my heart a lifetime
But would have given you your release
Given you a piece of me I could never regain
But guess what?
I was smarter than that
I saw through your lines in time
And you left me just as I was when you came
Untouched and whole!

Fingerprints

Fingerprints
By: Natasha D. Rufin

Fingerprints all over the shell
Of the man who knew it well
The only one to taste it
The only one to break it
Lines as fragile as the ones he used to capture it
Still surround it
She was the treasure he thought he wanted
A delicacy
A beauty
Something unique
Until he made it commonplace
Now she finally knows and understands
That you never cast your pearls to swines
No matter how fine
No matter how much they wine
Leave the pearls for the ones who are willing to pay the price
Leave the pearls for the king
He's the only one who will
Be willing and able to pay everything.

You Don't

You Don't
By: Natasha D. Rufin
6th June, 2009

You don't understand me
You don't appreciate who I am
Or what is important to me
Or who I love.
You don't know how to make me happy
You don't appreciate what makes me free
You don't understand the way I feel
I guess for us it was just not meant to be.

Craving...

Craving
By: Natasha D. Rufin
6th June, 2009

Craving to be loved
Craving to be touched
Craving to be held
She allowed you in.
She was stupid.
She bent to your way
She turned to you
Hoping you would be true
Only to be rejected
To be left standing in the cold
As she watched you leave
As she watched you run to another
As she let you have the power to hurt her.

Whenever

January 30, 2009 - Friday
Current mood: hopeful
Category: Writing and Poetry

Whenever
By: Natasha D. Rufin
To: my Cadbury angel...

Whenever I say your name a smile lights up my face
Whenever I remember the way you look
When I said something that surprised you
My heart hurts
Because I wish i was there wherever you are.

I hate how we're apart
I hate not being there near enough to hear the beating of your heart
I see us dancing under star filled evening skies
Hugging each other as we watch the sunrise
I hope that I love you the way that you need
Because whenever I look in my heart I see you and me
A picture I pray lasts eternally.

Se Ou Selman

Se Ou Selman
Written: 10th February, 2009
By: Natasha Rufin

Gade mwen nan tout ke mwen ti chouchou dous mwen
Se ou selman ki gen ke mwen
Se ou selman ki fe tout ko mwen kontan
Kontan tankou on fle sou primye jou prentan
Kontan tankou on papiyon ki ap vole ale a
Se ou selman ki fe mwen konnen mwen libere.

Se ou selman mwen vle rete avec pou tout tan
Paske le mwen reveye minuit avec rev mal
Se ou selman mwen rele
Le ou gade mwen ou we plis pase lot moun
Ou we tout ke mwen
Ou gade mwen le fini ou we tout namn mwen
Se ou selman ki we tout kote mwen toujou kache devan lot yo
Se ou selman mwen vle fe konfyans
Paske se ou selman ki gen tout sa mwen bezwen!

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Translation

Look straight into my heart my sweetheart
You alone have my heart
You alone make my entire body feel joy
Happy like a flower on the first day of spring
Happy like a butterfly who is flying above
You alone make me know that I am free.

It is with you alone I want to be with forever
Because when I awake at night with nightmares
It is you alone that I call
When you look at me you see more than many people
You see my entire being
You look at me and you see my soul
It is you alone who sees all of the places I try to hide from everyone else
It is you alone that I want to confide in
Because it is you alone that has everything I need.

Melt...

An older poem I recently came across that can't seem to leave me alone. I love it! Hope you guys love it also

Be blessed!
Nat

Melt
By: Natasha D. Rufin
29th October, 200...

I felt the ice inside me thawing,
I've been am ice princess for years
Yet finally someone has come along,
That brings me joy and tears!

You're reaching places no one has ever been,
Places I've kept hidden so far beneath my ice,
So far beneath my cold,
Yet just one look into your eyes
And my heart was yours to have and to hold!

Your smile shone bright ways
That always make me smile and laugh
So much that inside I began to feel the ice melt,
Until I experienced emotions I never felt.

When you're hurt it seems to make me sad,
It makes me want to forget being cold
Yet as I try to it seems that the unmelted ice
Still has me on hold.

So I'm melting into someone new to see
I may hate change yet you're changing me,
As my icy feelings melt and begin to heat,
I'm becoming sopmeone totally complete.

Now I Have You

Now I Have You
By: Natasha D. Rufin

I see your face next to mine
As I open my eyes
As I feel your arms around my waist
I feel so weird being in this place
At this time
With nothing but you on my mind
You free me
Compliment me
Give me something to be happy about
For a long time I didn't have anything
Now I have you...

I Wonder

I Wonder
By: Natasha T. D. Rufin

You are unlike anyone I've met before
A puzzle to be solved
A question to be answered
A mystery yet to be revealed.
I look at you and I wonder,
I wonder what you're thinking?
What makes you laugh?
What is it that makes you frown?
What is it that pics you up when you're down?
What is it that you really see?
I wish I knew.

I want to know you
From the inside out
Figure out the questions you bring to my mind
Find out the person that you truly are
I don't want the mask you show everyone else
I want to uncover your secrets
As I allow you into who I am
Into all of my recesses.

So can I get to know you?
I wonder...

Thinking Of You

Thinking Of You
By: Natasha D. Rufin

I close my eyes
Laying in my room
Thinking of nothing but you
The things that you say
The things that you do.

The feel of your hands on my back
The way I get lost in your eyes
The way I want you to rain kisses down my neck
As I whisper to you that:
"You were right
I was on the edge
The edge of giving it all to you
The edge of losing who I am in the wonder of you!"

As I lay here
I think of what I want to do to you
How I want to love you all over
Kiss all of the scars and pains away
I wonder as I think of you
What it is you find fascinating?
What is it that you really want to do to me?
And if you can be trusted to be true?
I lay here thinking of you...

His Words

His Words
By: Natasha D. Rufin

His words do something to me
I close my eyes wanting to believe everything he whispers to me
Of how he wants to be my one true love
How he wants to tear the walls down from around my heart
How he wants to be my man.

His smooth voice
Beautiful caramel complexion
Well sculpted body
Make me want to be with him
Physically, mentally, emotionally- eternally.