Change

Change

By: Natasha D. Rufin

Sometimes it is all that you want

Everything and nothing to you

All that your sould craves for

To be renewed

From inside out

To try new things

To be with new people

To learn who you are with no one telling you 

That who you are is wrong

Telling you that who you are cannot be true

That your dreams are unrealistic

That they cannot happen

I want CHANGE!

I'm going to get it

I'm going to do it

I'm letting go

I'm going through a metamorphosis

I'm growing, moving,

I'm CHANGING!

Between Us

Between Us
By: Natasha D. Rufin
To the true love of my life William! (Written while I was in Florida without him.)


There is an ocean between us tonight
I feel helpless and I miss you
You the Prince of my heart
We who have never been farther than 50 miles apart.

What are you doing?
What are you thinking?
Are you missing me?
Like I miss you...

I wish I could reach out across the ocean
So that I can hold you near
So that I could have my smile again
So that there would be no more tears
Between us...

No Warning

No Warning
By: Natasha D. rufin
March 4th, 2011
Dedicated to my uncle JeanGil

I don't know how to say it
I don't even know how to comprehend it
There was no warning
You weren't sick
I didn't even get to see you one last time
All I know is that you are gone now.

But why?
I want to ask God why would he take you?
Take you from us now
I thought we were promised three score & ten
You barely got your three score
You lived a full life
Loving everyone
Smiling your beautiful broad smile
Now I will not have you there on my big day
My kids will never get to meet my uncle Jean,
I just don't know how to get through this.

All I know is once a time ago a teen met her uncle
He smiled, he talked to her
He showed her how to assert herself
How to smile even when at her lowest
And she loved her uncle
Loved to see him whenever he visited
Wished she could visit him more
And now this teen turned woman
Without any warning
Has to strengthen herself to the fact that
She will no longer see her beloved uncle again.

You Mean More To Me!

You Mean More to Me!

By: Natasha D. Rufin

Date: February 10th, 2011

It's that time again

When everyone around us seem to be more than friends

When love is flying about in the air

And we are as usual here...

Here in this place where no one thinks we should be

Telling us how we should walk,

How we should talk,

How we should show love.

You and I work well together

We speak the same language in our hearts,

We walk the same path

Why is it that everyone else cant look at us

Add the numbers

Get the right answers to our math?

Baby we may not have everything

But I know that you mean everything to me

You provide me with all that I really need

Provide me with such love

You baby are my heart's desire

You are the only love for me

So today I want to tell you

That you mean more to me than any diamond ring!

To the true love of my life- I really don't need the ring/rings to know we are committed for life! I love you!

Actuality

Tunnel
Dream
Goal
Never exited
Never actuality
Not achieved.

The promise was given
Then taken away
I was told
Then untold
That my dreams
Would be made real
That all I hoped for
Prayed for
Would be true!

Honestly,
Truly,
I am ANGRY!

Beholder

Beholder
Beauty is in the eye of the
Beholder.

Behold HER!
Beauty...
The one whose heart
Was thought to never be tamed
Until the day he beheld her
Then beauty was in his eye
Beauty did not come the day he loved her
It always was
It was in the way she walked
It was in the way she held herself
It was in the way she loved freely


Behold Her!
Love is in her

By You!

By You!
By: Natasha D. Rufin

It saddens me
To see a flame dim
To watch a step lose it's pep
To watch as eyes lose passion
As a love begins to grow cold
As a tree begins to let leaves go

It is time
To fall
Time to close it all
As summer
Says goodbye
Time to sleep
Time to wait
For the next Spring
The next summer
The time when my heart
Will be gladdened
By love
By fire
By you!

RENEWED!!

RENEWED!
By: Natasha D. Rufin

RENEWED!
I can feel it
The muscles begin to form
Blood begins to flow
Skin placed onto sinews
Air into lungs
Smiles breaking free
Laughter rings in the air
Your word was shut up in my dry bones
Yet you renewed me
You gave me a new life
You said that you would give these dry bones life.

Oh HALLELUJAH!
I am refreshed
I am at rest
I am RENEWED!

Will It Be Okay

Sunlight pouring through the window
Onto pages that remain unwritten
The poet has stayed away
Not sure what to write or say
Until now...
I wonder what she will cover this page with
Will it be okay?

Dearest Daddy

Songs to meditate upon as you read this:
All In All- Lifehouse
Don't Want To Go- Avalon

Prayer turned into a poem written by me... (7th April, 2007). I have not chosen a title for it as yet, but if you think of one let me know.

I pray that you enjoy it and that you keep Matthew 11:28 & 29 in your Spirit. Oh and you have my permission to pass it on.

Nattie


Dearest Daddy who is enthroned in Heaven
But lives in my heart,
I humbly bow before You
With my Heart extended to You,
Wanting just to talk and spend some time with You.

Daddy, today I come before you tired,
Tired of so much.
Daddy, I am tired of the comfortable,
Tired of the numbness,
The bland and solitary life
Tired of blending in,
I'm tired dear God of quenching your Spirit
Fearing what may happen.

Lord I just need so much more of you,
I want to try and catch you,
Like a little girl who follows her daddy's footsteps hoping for a chance to touch Him,
I want to be captured by You
Like a lover captures the one He feels is the apple of His eye,
I want to be the one dear Father
The one you choose to dance in your arms.

Lord I want no more of my filthiness
I want only Your Holiness,
Help me to become
The woman you created me to be.
Help me to deal with the hurts, the aches, the loneliness.
Help me to find my joys, my treasures in You.
Help me to begin fully seeking after You
And not just the things of You!
Dear Father I pray that You ruin EVERYTHING!
Everything that is not of You!

I only want You!
You alone can fill my heart thirsts, soul thrists, mind thirsts.
I want to be filled with You!
Teach me how to be Your precious daughter,
Teach me how to dance
I'm tired of reading and watching others do what I long to,
I want to be in your arms
I want to dance!

Talk is cheap Father,
I can talk all day of what dancing with You should be
But I want to live the dance
For I have realized that my life is the dance
Make it perfect.

But Lord this prayer is not only for me
I love my friends,
I want them to know more of You,
No more learning of who You are,
Dear Father it is time that they knew.
We need your presence Father God,
Impact to us all what You want us to know daily,
I love You and I want Your love to be bestowed upon them
Just like how You have bestowed it upon me.

Lord I also bring before You my family,
Take care of them, love them, teach them.
Show them how much You treasure them.
We love You
We need You
We want You
Make me an example to them
And help me to continue to grow with them.

Finally daddy I bring before You my enemies
Help me to love them just as You love me
Help me to not see them as foes
But to see them in a manner that will help me to be their friend
Help me to be Your witness.
Thank you for all that You have done
Thank you for taking away any feelings that do not glorify You,
Thank You dear father for reminding me that sometimes I just have to let go,
And let You have your way.

To You only does my Spirit yield,
To You only am I lead to,
Father capture me in Your arms,
Enfold me in Your life and love,
And take me into the dance.

Loving You in my ALL!
Your Loving daughter
Natasha