Awake & growing!

The Diarist fell asleep

Asleep with no dreams

Got tired of the hurt

Closed within herself

Every time she tried to bloom

She was shoved to the back

Told she couldn't do it

to be content with where she was

But she wasn't content then

Isn't content now

Is opening her eyes

Is pushing forward

Is looking only to God

For she knows

That today is her day

Watch her as she grows and glows!

Thanks

Thanks
By: Natasha Rufin





I give You thanks
For all the gifts You have bestowed in my life!
For my family
For my friends
For the person that I love
For the future You have promised me
One filled with hope!








Thank You is not enough
Not enough for your grace
Not enough for your mercy
Not enough for your LOVE!
Daddy, Heavenly Father, Saviour, My God & King
Today & everyday I want to thank You for EVERYTHING!

Change

Change

By: Natasha D. Rufin

Sometimes it is all that you want

Everything and nothing to you

All that your sould craves for

To be renewed

From inside out

To try new things

To be with new people

To learn who you are with no one telling you 

That who you are is wrong

Telling you that who you are cannot be true

That your dreams are unrealistic

That they cannot happen

I want CHANGE!

I'm going to get it

I'm going to do it

I'm letting go

I'm going through a metamorphosis

I'm growing, moving,

I'm CHANGING!

Between Us

Between Us
By: Natasha D. Rufin
To the true love of my life William! (Written while I was in Florida without him.)


There is an ocean between us tonight
I feel helpless and I miss you
You the Prince of my heart
We who have never been farther than 50 miles apart.

What are you doing?
What are you thinking?
Are you missing me?
Like I miss you...

I wish I could reach out across the ocean
So that I can hold you near
So that I could have my smile again
So that there would be no more tears
Between us...

No Warning

No Warning
By: Natasha D. rufin
March 4th, 2011
Dedicated to my uncle JeanGil

I don't know how to say it
I don't even know how to comprehend it
There was no warning
You weren't sick
I didn't even get to see you one last time
All I know is that you are gone now.

But why?
I want to ask God why would he take you?
Take you from us now
I thought we were promised three score & ten
You barely got your three score
You lived a full life
Loving everyone
Smiling your beautiful broad smile
Now I will not have you there on my big day
My kids will never get to meet my uncle Jean,
I just don't know how to get through this.

All I know is once a time ago a teen met her uncle
He smiled, he talked to her
He showed her how to assert herself
How to smile even when at her lowest
And she loved her uncle
Loved to see him whenever he visited
Wished she could visit him more
And now this teen turned woman
Without any warning
Has to strengthen herself to the fact that
She will no longer see her beloved uncle again.

You Mean More To Me!

You Mean More to Me!

By: Natasha D. Rufin

Date: February 10th, 2011

It's that time again

When everyone around us seem to be more than friends

When love is flying about in the air

And we are as usual here...

Here in this place where no one thinks we should be

Telling us how we should walk,

How we should talk,

How we should show love.

You and I work well together

We speak the same language in our hearts,

We walk the same path

Why is it that everyone else cant look at us

Add the numbers

Get the right answers to our math?

Baby we may not have everything

But I know that you mean everything to me

You provide me with all that I really need

Provide me with such love

You baby are my heart's desire

You are the only love for me

So today I want to tell you

That you mean more to me than any diamond ring!

To the true love of my life- I really don't need the ring/rings to know we are committed for life! I love you!

Actuality

Tunnel
Dream
Goal
Never exited
Never actuality
Not achieved.

The promise was given
Then taken away
I was told
Then untold
That my dreams
Would be made real
That all I hoped for
Prayed for
Would be true!

Honestly,
Truly,
I am ANGRY!

Beholder

Beholder
Beauty is in the eye of the
Beholder.

Behold HER!
Beauty...
The one whose heart
Was thought to never be tamed
Until the day he beheld her
Then beauty was in his eye
Beauty did not come the day he loved her
It always was
It was in the way she walked
It was in the way she held herself
It was in the way she loved freely


Behold Her!
Love is in her

By You!

By You!
By: Natasha D. Rufin

It saddens me
To see a flame dim
To watch a step lose it's pep
To watch as eyes lose passion
As a love begins to grow cold
As a tree begins to let leaves go

It is time
To fall
Time to close it all
As summer
Says goodbye
Time to sleep
Time to wait
For the next Spring
The next summer
The time when my heart
Will be gladdened
By love
By fire
By you!

RENEWED!!

RENEWED!
By: Natasha D. Rufin

RENEWED!
I can feel it
The muscles begin to form
Blood begins to flow
Skin placed onto sinews
Air into lungs
Smiles breaking free
Laughter rings in the air
Your word was shut up in my dry bones
Yet you renewed me
You gave me a new life
You said that you would give these dry bones life.

Oh HALLELUJAH!
I am refreshed
I am at rest
I am RENEWED!